Ouch!….. This was my very thought after a sister in Christ gave me a simple compliment on my hair. Soon as she said it was pretty, I immediately started touching in it. I was thinking to myself: no it isn’t, I need a perm, the rain has made it swell and its a mess! I was so caught up in the facts about why my hair was not pretty to me, that I did not see what she saw. She then looked at me and saw something else… Insecurities. She boldly told me that I need to stop it. She reassured me that my hair was pretty and that I was beautiful also. Immediately, I was convicted and felt uncovered.
Later, the Holy Spirit explained to me that I still had some residue left from insecurities. He went on to explain that the insecurities has nothing to do with past hurts anymore. I need to continue to mediate on the word and to know who I am in Christ. I need to see myself how God sees me. He went on a little further and told me more about myself. He told me that it was easy for me to give out compliments. He said I do it all the time. I look for something good in or on a person to compliment them on. He said that I was good at that. However, what I was not good at was receiving compliments. (Ouch!) It is so true. After I thought about it, I asked myself, why can’t I just say “thank you ” and move on when someone compliments me? I rationalized it for a while and called it being humble and not being conceded, but that was so far from the truth.
Well, I have some work to do! I have already started by recognizing the problem and repenting. Now, I will find truth and renew my mind. Therefore, I will be meditating on who Jesus say I am. Unlike the other blogs I have written, this one has to be continued on a later date. I look forward to my complete deliverance and coming back to share with you my victory!
Point to ponder:
Are you completely healed or is there some residue left?
Action to take:
1. Recognize there is an issue first.
2. Take ownership- the truth can hurt at times, but it’s only going to help you.
3. Ask for forgiveness.
4. Mediate on God’s word – say only what He says about you.
Verse of Meditation:
Ephesians 4:20-23 (NLT) But that isn’t what you learned about Christ. Since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him, throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes.
Prayer to pray:
Father you are my strength, you are my healer, you are my peace. Lord forgive me for not seeing myself like you see me. Forgive me for criticizing your creation. Thank you for your grace and mercy. Thanks for being a great teacher. Please continue to mold and shape me into your image and likeness. Anything that’s not like you I ask that you remove it in the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.