On yesterday we celebrated my son’s 2oth birthday. As I flashed back over the years, the Holy Spirit reminded me how far God has brought us. I was 17 years old when I got pregnant with him. It was the toughest, darkest, and scariest time of my life. You see, I was never promiscuous. I just did not know my worth or what love really was. Therefore, I thought that if I really liked a guy, I should show him by sleeping with him. That’s just what I did. Late one night, I took my mother’s car without permission and had a one night stand. Little did I know, that night would change my life forever! Not only did I get pregnant, my son’s father walked away also. The only words I recalled him saying to me was “I thought you were on birth control?”
“How could this happen, why me. I was a good girl,” is what I thought to myself. “How can I be the one with a child, that does not have a father?” I was so embarrassed and humiliated. So, I took matters in my hands and tried to fix it. I dated another guy and told him I was pregnant, just so my son would have a father. To make matters worst, I gave my son his last name. That was so wrong of me. I hurt others in the process. It’s true, hurting people hurt people. But God has a way of fixing our mistakes and making it all work for our good. If only I would have waited. If only I knew three years later that God was sending me a husband. A man who would love my son as though he was his. A man who could lead him to Christ. If only I knew Jesus and understood that my pain had a purpose. However I didn’t. What I do know now is that Jesus is a healer, a restorer, and a redeemer! During the most painful, darkest, and humiliating time in my life, purpose was birth. He used the pain and humiliation so that I could help someone else. It did not feel good, but it worked for my good!
You see, man will leave you, but God said He will never leave you nor forsake you. I’ve been forgiven and healed because of his grace and mercy. Today I stand as a vessel that God uses to encourage teenagers and young mothers. I made it through! I graduated from high school and college after I delivered my son. To add, when I met my husband, his football number was #8. When my son turned eight I got married. He also met his biological father at the age of eight and got his last name corrected. Just in case you did not know, the number eight means “new beginnings.” God turned it all around and gave us a new start. He is perfect in all His ways!
I dare you to trust Him today with your situation. Give Him the pain, the embarrassment, the lies, the mistrust, the doubt, depression, oppression, ect. He is a healer! Push and pray and do not get weary in your well doing. You are about to birth something great!
Verse of meditation: Isaiah 26:17-18 (NLV)
As the woman who is going to have a baby comes close to the time to give birth, she suffers and cries out in her pains. This is how we were before You, O Lord. We suffered in pain. We gave birth, as it were, only to wind. We could not bring the world out of its trouble. And no people of the earth were born.