Don’t Give up… You Can Do This!

This past week has been such a challenge for me. My body went through terrible physical pain. To add, I allowed my spirit to get down as well. It started to feel like the weight of the world was on my shoulders.  Most of the time, I would press my way into my secret place and talk to Jesus. But I found myself just in bed and trying to find the strength to sit up. By Sunday, I was back to feeling better (so I thought).  I woke up around 3am with a terrible cramp (charley horse) in my left calf. The pain rolled over into the next day. It got worse as the day went by. I was given advice from two people on what to do to relieve the pain, and it helped! However, it was only temporary relief. The excruciating pain pushed me into my secret place to pray and talk to God.

After that talk, I thought I would get instant relief.  However, the pain got so bad that I could not make it back to the living room. I started to cry and moan, and just when I was about to fall and give up, the Holy spirit said to me, “don’t give up.. You can do this!” Immediately, I started gaining strength and momentum.  I started saying out of my own mouth “I can do this.  By His stripes I am healed.” Before I knew it, I was back into the living room and seated back comfortably. The Holy Spirit also led me to do some research and I found out that dehydration was the cause of the cramp. That also explained the headaches and dry mouth that I’ve been experiencing lately.

In conclusion, my physical body was shutting down due to the lack of proper hydration. To add, my spirit was too. When the enemy came to attack me with all the physical pain last week, I should have continued feeding my spirit with God’s word and praying. Instead, I allowed myself to yield to the pain and allowed the physical pain to determine if I would keep moving or not.  No matter what, I must stand on his word:
So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. (Galatians 6:9)


Thought to ponder:

What words have you spoken to your situation(s) today?

Action to take:
A great woman of God reminded me of the power of my own words on last week. She also reiterated how I needed to use them. I would like to use this time to simply tell her THANK YOU!
Don’t make your pain, hurt, or situation bigger than God. The situation may seem big, but remember, Our God is BIGGER! Speak to that mountain and tell it to move!

Verse of meditation:
Acts 20:23-24
I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit warns me that prison and hardships are facing me. However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.

Prayer to pray:
Father God you are my strength. You are a present help in the time of trouble. Forgive me for allowing the troubles of this world to paralyze me. Also, forgive me for not seeking you with all my heart. Lord thank you for your sustaining power. Thank you for destroying every yoke and removing every burden. Father fill me again with your Holy Spirit. Let the same mind that is in Christ also be in me. In JESUS name I pray, Amen.

Everything Isn’t Garbage


A couple of days ago my husband was cleaning up and he saw an open pack of weave that I had used. I’ve just finished styling a client’s hair, and he thought the remaining of the weave was trash and needed to be thrown into the garbage.  When he asked me if I needed it I told him yes, but then he looked at me again with uncertainty and asked, “Are you sure?” I responded to him and said “yes, I can still use it.” I know that it looked like trash to him, because he did not see any value in it. To add, he had no use for it either.  However, I often use the remaining weave on my client’s hair as a filler-in, when they do not bring enough weave for me to complete their hair.  Once I’ve finished their hair, I’m compensated and many times I may receive a tip for the extra hair that I provided to my clients.  Therefore, when I get paid, EVERYONE in our house benefits from it.

If we are honest, we sometimes do people this way. We throw them away when we don’t see value in them anymore. We get frustrated with them and believe the lie of the enemy, and think the person will always be a drunk,  drug abuser, cheater, lesbian, gay, promiscuous, or what ever the sin maybe. But the truth is their sin may not be your sin. Most of us was an “ex” something before we came to Christ. God did not give up on us so we can’t give up on them. The truth is, they are NOT garbage. They are God’s masterpiece and His most precious jewel. People may even wanted to throw you away but God said, “No, I can still use her/him. God said in his word:
“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb.
Before you were born I set you apart
and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5

Thought to ponder:
Who have you thrown away or given up on? Did you not see value in them anymore? Did they disappoint you, or hurt you?

Action to take:
Ask God for forgiveness.  Also, ask him for wisdom when dealing with people. There are some people that was not authorized to be in your life to begin with. However, there are some people who are. Therefore, ask God to teach you how to long suffer with the people He authorized to be in your life. To add, win them over with the love of Jesus Christ.  Jesus says in Jeremiah 31:3 that “Therefore with loving-kindness have I drawn thee.”

Verse of mediation:
Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)
We are Gods Masterpiece. He has created us a new in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.

Prayer to pray:
Lord you are the giver of life. You are love. Forgive me for throwing people away that you have authorized to be in my life. Father give me wisdom on how to love like you, Also help me to value what you value. Heal me from the hurt when others gave up on me and counted me out. Help me to forgive them. Thank you for my healing. In Jesus name I pray amen.


Dysfunctional Family

Growing up in a single parent home can be challenging and uncertain. My mom raised three children on her own.  Our fathers were not around. She was not employed and had to depend on food stamps and Section 8 housing to take care of us. My mom was faced with many challenges trying to figure out how to pay bills and make sure we had necessities. This brought on depression and stress. Next, my mom turned to drugs and they tried to consume her. Although she was faced with many adversities, my mom has always been the strongest, loving hearted woman I know.

As children we had to endure many things. But there was one thing that impacted me the most. Not having a normal Christmas. There were several Christmas mornings that my siblings and I woke up and did not have gifts like the other children. I knew my mom was struggling financially, but as a child I could not wrap my mind around not having Christmas presents. To add, no one really taught me the true meaning of Christmas. I thought this was a day to receive gifts only.

When I got older, I made a vow that when I have children they would NEVER wake up on Christmas day without Christmas gifts. So I did just that. Soon as I became a parent I gave away what I called “love” to my oldest son. I gave him any and everything he wanted plus more. I remember just like it was yesterday. He was four months old on his first Christmas. I had that Christmas tree full of stuff. He even had a toddler bicycle. Now you know that was too much. My baby was not even crawling, how in the world would he be able to ride a bike.

I was giving away my dysfunction and calling it love. I was living out my fantasy childhood through my son. It felt good, but it was not God. I was hurting my son. He grew up ungrateful, greedy, lazy, and rebellious. My feelings was hurt because I did not understand how my son did not appreciate me or the nice things I bought him. I thought he would love me because of the things I was giving him. That was far from the truth. The truth is, my son is now nineteen years old and never knew what it was like to struggle. He thought everything was going to be handed to him. When I stop paying his cell phone bill and giving him so much stuff, he thought I did not love him any more.  The Holy Spirit had to show me that the little girl in me needed to be healed from my childhood. My relationship with Christ has taught me the real reason for Christmas. It’s to celebrate the birth of Christ not my son. He had to teach me to give from a healthy place.  Now my children have a healthier mom. God gave me another chance to get it right.  My seven year old knows at an early age about Jesus and the meaning of Christmas. I thank God for healing and maturity. When I was a child, I spoke as a child, but when I became a man I put away childish things (1 Corinthians 13:11).

Thought to ponder:
What are some areas in your life that are dysfunctional, but you are calling it love?

Action to take:
You don’t have to just be a parent to give away your dysfunction. You could be a wife, sister, mentor, friend ect. Remember, we can do a lot of “Good” things, but are they “God” things. Let’s line our lives up to what the bibles teaches. Ask God to reveal to you the areas in your life that you are not completely healed from. Also, ask for complete healing and wisdom to love the correct way.

Verse to meditate on:
Colossians 3:2
Set your affections on things above, not on things on the earth.

Prayer to pray:
Father you are love. Forgive me for giving away my dysfunction and calling it love. Father I need you. Help me to be the person you created me to be. Heal me from all past hurts and shame. Father God your word declares who the Son sets free is free indeed! So I stand on your word and claim my complete healing today in The name of Jesus, Amen.

Childlike Faith

Two weeks ago I was walking into the kitchen, and I noticed my six year old standing in a chair jumping towards my husband without warning. My husband instinct was to immediately catch him, and he did. My husband was standing there trying to watch the rest of the sports highlights so after a couple of times of just jumping into mid-air with no warning my husband turned to my son and said, “calm down son. What makes you think I’m going to keep catching you?” Then my son put on the biggest smile and said boldly, “because you my daddy that’s why.” Immediately, the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said that’s how I want you to be. Just know that I’m your father and I will catch you! I will never let you hit the ground. God says in his word he wants us to have child like faith. “verily I say to unto you, whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child, he shall not enter therein” Mark 10:14.

Last year in January my husband was in a car accident that caused him to have seizures  just about every week, therefore he was unable to return back to work. His income was cut by 70%. Needless to say, I only work 21 hours a week. God had spoken to us both and told us that no mater what it looked like, He would provide! He did just that! It has been a whole year and God has supernaturally provided for us in ways we would have never imagined! None of our utilities have been turned off, car note and other expenses have been paid.

This month was the first month we did not have all the rent money, but my husband was led by the Holy Spirit to call our landlord . He told her about why he has not been working the past year. She was amazed that we was able to pay all our rent up till now. We have never been late on rent at all. God gave us favor with her. She hung up with my husband and made a phone call to an agency that normally requires you to put in an application for assistance, but the agency told our landlord that she did not need to know my husband name, nevertheless need him to put in an application. The agency said that they were writing a check for a certain amount right now sending to our landlord on our behalf. Also, they will be assisting us  for the next three months and there will be no penalties or late fees. Our landlord is also planning on moving us into a bigger house to meet my growing family needs. Only God can do something so amazing! I thank God that my husband took that leap of faith! We have not because we ask not. (James 4:2) Trusting God has not always been easy, especially when we could not always see a way. We had to walk by faith and not by sight. At times that was scary. But, God was only strengthening our faith and working things out for our good. Thank you Jesus! Praise His mighty name!

Thought to ponder:
When was the last time you let go and completely trusted God?

Action to take:
Many people don’t act in faith because of fear.
Let go of fear. God did not give us the spirit of fear. he gave us power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). Fear is sent by the enemy to paralyze us. Start keeping a journal of all the wonderful things God is doing in your life and all the prayers he has answered. So, the next time that your faith is tested, check God’s record! Also, find scriptures to meditate on to help increase your faith.

Verse to meditate on:
Mark 11:22-23 (NKJV)
So JESUS answered and said to them, “Have Faith in God. For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, be removed and be cast into the sea, and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that this things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.

Prayer to pray:
Father God you are Jehovah Jireh, my provider! You are my prince of peace! Forgive me for not trusting you like I should. Thank you for always being there to catch me when I thought I was going to fall. Father God you said in your word that whatever things I ask when I pray, believe that I have received them, and I will have them. So, Lord I pray that you bless me Indeed and enlarge my territory. Keep your hands on me and keep me from evil. It’s in Jesus name I pray, Amen.

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